The courage to start again

Once upon a time two strangers to each other, that one day they met and met, and then did not see themselves more as strangers. They spent some time together sometimes, and a few weeks later found to be in love.More weeks passed and the excitement of the early mingled with the familiarity that both began to feel. The gathering brought the authenticity of each one, no thing to hide the defects from the beginning. But this authenticity has not revealed defeitinhos just silly, also revealed annoying things and perhaps even unacceptable to each other. But there was love there for a bit obscure these defects, so they remained together.Months later decided to marry, because they saw no reason for not being married. They married, and then that excitement back to the start. He stood there for a while, maybe for a year or a little more, and then turned the damn living developer, who left everything twice more tense than the left when he came courting.Began terrible fights. Scandals, screaming, anger and promises of the separation. A leak of one of them for a few hours, the near-drowning in tears the other who stays at home. The next day, pretending that nothing had happened, forgave themselves secretly, but he never forgave one another. However, it is easier to sustain a damaging relationship, than to take action and start from scratch. And what is worse, start from scratch yourself.Over time, the conversations became shallow and empty and effort to make it work, ceased to be sincere. There were no more kisses and sex only out of obligation. And then, a great piece of theater rose from nothing, and as not to disappoint the audience, the fights just outrageous and they learned to fight with class. Playing small doses of venom sarcastic one another, placing the foot slightly in front of each other and praying the drop is the opposite of subtle. But that began to fall increasingly left until only indifference. And this is where they returned to those who were strangers to each other before they met. But still married. Why?Because people are afraid to leave their relationships even if they are healthy? What good does not have the solitude of being alone, but having the world's largest loneliness within a relationship? If it did not work, because lying on broken glass?
I'm not afraid of dying, but afraid to marry. Do not take me wrong, I recognize great things in a marriage and I think a beautiful gesture, and should be very good when it really works, but what frightens me is the margin of error that seems to be higher each day. The coexistence of humans is extremely difficult, because we are all very complex and sometimes too hard. It must be terrible to separate, but more terrible still must sustain a relationship for reasons including the love is no longer included.If I get married one day, I sincerely hope it works out, but if not, I hope I have enough courage to start again, simply for self-preservation and respect myself, but mainly because they lose hope of being happy in love .
 Practice makes perfect, but I do not want to be perfect, just want to be good enough to make a relationship work. How many times as necessary, because my happiness depends on me.