So many ways, the same feeling

 As far as love is able to get? I now speak about love in general. Here are ways that I felt: love of daughter, friend love, sisterly love, love girlfriend, love of her granddaughter. It also has a kind of love without a name, which is love I feel for my younger brother. Perhaps this is as close as anyone can get to know how to love a child without actually having one. Only I know how it was particularly difficult to leave it when I moved. Do not let him actually - still see him whenever I can - but it was the farthest I got from him since he was born four years ago. I did not cry every night, but in some cried. But think ... I thought about him all the days and nights. Now I'm better, used and trying to think of things I comfort them and give me reason to stay where I am when the longing gets too big. Maybe that's what my father feels when he gets more than a month away from us, maybe that's what my mother felt when we were little and we went on holiday with him. Maybe that's what she is feeling right now with my change. But I'm sure my dad was always worse. I lived with my mother continuously for seventeen years, while with my father when we could spend fifteen days in a row together was something unusual, a rarity. Most of the time was a weekend or a day.Now I'm able to live a little more with it, you may get even more going forward, but who knows if this will be enough? Probably the lost years can never be compensated.But it would be wrong of me to say that he only saw me grow up, because I always lived with my mother and she still did not understand that I grew up. It may not have fully grown, but for now, enough. My family is always a tricky issue in my life.I finish this thing pointless, saying I have a serious fear of having children one day. I had the worst of life, but went through some things I do not want ever to pass my younger brother. So I guess this means they also would not want my child to pass.If you ever thought about it, maybe that's the time. Unfortunately I could never afford to postpone issues like this, it always came up to me making it clear that there is and I have to be very careful with my choices. Think about it. And when you think enough thought, think more, to get as close as possible an answer or a certainty. For full answer and never have total certainty, 20% is luck. So, do the best with 80%.