You know, I'm beginning to believe all that nonsense of "practice detachment." I am too wedded to the past and I know this is bad, but I can’t help it. I've been keeping all that I write today, from the time I learned to write. Are you aware of how much paper do I have? Since my first day at 7 years old, even conversations for his role in the classroom, and notebooks, loose leaf ... I could never throw anything away, I do not know why. I do not care to throw out other things: clothes, objects (depends on the object ... If you have sentimental value, there is almost impossible), shoes, and all the rest, but with the roles I have possession. The roles dominate me, ask to be saved and I keep them. I'm afraid to throw anything away, but I know I need to do this at some time. And perhaps the time is now.
When I was a child, I used to dream that one day would be very famous (sometimes I wanted to be famous as a writer, as in other star in other singing, or even as a stylist and psychologist) and in the future, when I die, would anyone want to make a movie about my life and saved all these papers serve to make the film as faithful as possible to my life. But I grew up and got rid of it in my head, but even so I kept keeping all these roles. What is the reason? I do not know, just do not have the courage to throw away.
In my closet has more papers, notebooks, binders and drawings stored than anything else. I've thought several times to burn everything, but I lack courage in the hour. But today I realized that sometimes in life, we can’t let go of certain things and even some people we have to just let go. Sometimes something or someone to hold power only in the delay, only hinders us. Believe me, I know it's much easier said than done, after all, still can’t remember lighting the fire? Yeah, but I want to even try. I need to light the fire not only for my papers, but also to certain feelings and even to some people.
Sometimes in life, just taking different paths from those expected and that changes everything, even us. It's amazing how much influence the choices in our future, but even more fortunate influence. Is it luck when you make the right choice, because nothing is guaranteed. I'm feeling sorry for having to realize that I have to start giving up so many things and people, but it has always been inevitable had to happen one hour, because part of me. I always knew one day would have to leave some things to accomplish to bring at least a part of my dreams that are so great, that do not fit anywhere. I always knew I'd have to give up some things. But now I'm really seeing how this is necessary.
I'd rather cut myself so many connections that simply allow them to be torn from me. I'll put fire to everything. It will hurt, but one day only the memories will be enough to call me and not need it all over roles.
What's done is done. The important thing now is what I'll do. And right now, let the fire burn everything.
When I was a child, I used to dream that one day would be very famous (sometimes I wanted to be famous as a writer, as in other star in other singing, or even as a stylist and psychologist) and in the future, when I die, would anyone want to make a movie about my life and saved all these papers serve to make the film as faithful as possible to my life. But I grew up and got rid of it in my head, but even so I kept keeping all these roles. What is the reason? I do not know, just do not have the courage to throw away.
In my closet has more papers, notebooks, binders and drawings stored than anything else. I've thought several times to burn everything, but I lack courage in the hour. But today I realized that sometimes in life, we can’t let go of certain things and even some people we have to just let go. Sometimes something or someone to hold power only in the delay, only hinders us. Believe me, I know it's much easier said than done, after all, still can’t remember lighting the fire? Yeah, but I want to even try. I need to light the fire not only for my papers, but also to certain feelings and even to some people.
Sometimes in life, just taking different paths from those expected and that changes everything, even us. It's amazing how much influence the choices in our future, but even more fortunate influence. Is it luck when you make the right choice, because nothing is guaranteed. I'm feeling sorry for having to realize that I have to start giving up so many things and people, but it has always been inevitable had to happen one hour, because part of me. I always knew one day would have to leave some things to accomplish to bring at least a part of my dreams that are so great, that do not fit anywhere. I always knew I'd have to give up some things. But now I'm really seeing how this is necessary.
I'd rather cut myself so many connections that simply allow them to be torn from me. I'll put fire to everything. It will hurt, but one day only the memories will be enough to call me and not need it all over roles.
What's done is done. The important thing now is what I'll do. And right now, let the fire burn everything.
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