Friday, 14 December 2012

Ocean

I'm not afraid to throw myself head.
I'm not afraid of being fat, but also not afraid to be lean.
I'm not afraid to look ridiculous for having pimples after having passed the age.

I'm not afraid to give my best by fear. I want to take risks and throw myself head for what I believe, because only I can fight my battles.
I'm afraid to feel bad for more than a day because of my appearance. I'm afraid of ending up with myself in order to fit the demands of others ... And who are the others anyway?
I'm afraid of having wrinkles prematurely just because all require me to run faster than time. And once again: Who are the others?
I'm afraid to stop being me.

I'm not afraid to suffer.
I'm not afraid to disappoint me.
I'm not afraid to change just because I wanted hair for five minutes.

I'm afraid of not having memories of things that meant the world to me. If we suffer is because it really was important and it was important because it was real and wonderful.
I'm afraid not to create expectations and become a boring old pessimist who fills his mouth to say it does not plan to be disappointed. Nobody lives like that, the difference is that I have the courage to admit. And yes, I am a hopeful person. And yes, I hope the best for most people. And yes, I'm endangered.
I'm afraid to stop being spontaneous and not meet my own momentary desires once in a while. And as I hardly changed my face since childhood, my hair different are what define the passage of time. This is my way of being changeable, not stay frozen forever in the same thing. Who changes, almost always evolves.
I was a stupid teenager who danced in the street and gave the biggest hugs when he met a friend or a friend. And also cried a lot. Well, these things are not so different today, except that I became quieter and diminish my public dances. But I will always hold my important people with all my heart and I'll always laugh myself every time I remember something good.

Time may pass and I miss some features, win new and remodel old ones, but I will always be me. Because I am all that I have, I stay true to myself, I remain faithful to the life I want to live. I stay true to my beliefs and I live well with me, because I think I'm finally starting to understand my crazy head. But I like to be difficult and incomprehensible. Person thus become interesting.
They all have their charm. And sometimes your charm is not having any.




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